Getting Real
The last few days I have been praying about what God would have me to
write about and I heard him impress upon my spirit that I needed to “Get
Real”. I mean this is a journal column after all. So that is what I am
going to do. I want you all to know that from this point out this column
is going to be me. I am going to show myself to you in a way that you
will know me and what I struggle with. I know that many of us will have
similar experiences and I hope that my willingness to share these things
with you will help encourage you in your walk.
God should me something about myself this week that I probably never
would have realized or even admitted had someone else not had the same
issue and shared it. I never would have even realized on my own had I
not read this person's experience. Something I have learned about myself
is that I crave my husbands praise and, not only that, other people's as
well. Not out of selfishness or wanting to be well known. I crave to do
well in other's people's eyes because I have allowed their view of me to
become my view of myself. Yes we all as wives want to be pleasing in the
eyes of our husbands, but is the way your husband views you the way you
view yourself? And if so is this the person God says you are? The Lord
impressed upon me that it is not the praise that I receive from my
husband that I should depend on for my self worth but what and who God
says I am. It doesn't matter what the world thinks of me, and when it
all comes down to it, it really doesn't matter what my husband thinks of
me. It's what God thinks of me. After all when we are reunited with Him
at the end of time it is He alone that we stand before to be judged. My
husband has no say in it, neither does the rest of the world. My actions
fall on me and me alone. Was I the wife that He says I am? Was I the
mother that He called me to be? Was I the servant that I should have
been? Was I faithful to Him and to His calling? Did I do everything as
unto the Lord?
I have been saddened that I have allowed my self worth to be determined
by how much praise I receive from my husband, family and friends. It is
not right. I have asked God to help me to remember that He sees me as so
much more. He sees me as a daughter of the King of Kings and Lord of
Lords. I honestly don't always see myself that way but I am working on
it. I see myself as someone who struggles on a daily basis to raise my
children, and be a good wife. I see someone who struggles with
organization and procrastination. I see someone not worthy to be writing
a monthly article. Sometimes I think “What do I have to say that will be
so important.” and then God reminds me that my experiences and my
writing and my thoughts may be the very thing that encourages someone
else to continue in their walk with Him. To not give up and push it
through. Then you know what else God does when I am feeling that I am
not worthy to be His child? He wraps His loving arms around me and fills
me with his love so deeply that I struggle to keep the tears at bay.
I remember about a year and a half ago that I had been going through a
really tough trial and I was praying and reading my Bible and my thought
was “why me?”. Right then an image of Jesus came to me and in the image
I saw Jesus from the waist up His arms reaching out to me and He said
“because I chose you”. He, our great wonderful Daddy, chose me. An
ordinary girl who gave her life to Christ at a young age and tried to
live for Him ever since. He chose me to be a mother to three wonderful
girls, to be the wife to the best man that I could have ever dared hope
for. He chose me to minister to others through the internet. He chose
me! You know what else. He chose you too. To be the wife, mother,
sister, daughter, and friend to those around you. He chose you for the
various ministries that you undertake. Whether you believe it or not
your role as a wife is a ministry. Your ministering to your husband
daily by meeting his needs and fulfilling your role the way God would
have you do it. Your also an example to those around you. Young women
who may be getting ready to marry or may have just gotten married will
look at you and see your example whether you realize it or not. Don't
let your self worth be determined by anything but what God says about
you. If we will allow God to determine our self worth rather than
everyone else we will become more effective in our roles that He has
placed us in.
I hope that my thought process and my heart has shown itself through. I
pray that God reveals in you what He revealed for me. I also pray that
your needs are met. I want you to know that God loves you. He cares for
you. He wants you. He will lovingly pick you up in His arms when you
need Him to carry you. He can make a way when there seems to be no way.
He is there.
Let's pray...
Dear Daddy, Thank you for revealing and showing yourself to me. Lord, I
thank you for filling my sisters up with your love and letting them know
that they are your daughters. They are each special. That You have
designed each one with a special purpose and that no one else can fill
that role. Lord let them know that their self worth is far more than how
they see themselves. That it is not based on their husbands, families,
and friends view of them but yours. You know who they are and what their
needs are. Lord I ask you to minister to their needs and send the right
people across their paths to encourage, support and love them. Thank
you, Father.
Amen!!!!!
Hallelujah!!!! Our God is truly and AWESOME God!!!!
Until next time... Praying for you.
Dianna
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